Books by J a Carter-Winward

Eve Spencer had always been grounded-her role as wife and mother, her role in the community, her role as Eve Spencer-all certain, firmly planted in her own mind.¿ ¿Until the day she remembers who she really is.And it is not Eve Spencer.Memories, like glass shards, shred through her mind, dismantling her world as the reality of her past threatens to rip apart her present: the memory of being lost as a child, then found, taken, and forced to play her role, a role she adopted as her own for over thirty years.Eve's name is Lilli-and she remembers. All the people in whom she trusts tell her she's deluded, yet they all hide something about her, about Lilli, as she becomes more determined to reveal secrets that everyone seem privy to-except her.Only Orvis Dunn, a jaded, curmudgeonly local attorney believes her, the only person willing to help her excavate her past. As Orvis investigates, Lilli struggles to dig deeper into her own mind-while simultaneously trying to hold onto it. The fissure in her once-grounded world is becoming a chasm: everything and everyone she cares about starts slipping through her fingers, her grip on reality threatening to collapse, as she seeks the truth.Falling Back to Earth is both a mystery, and a journey of self-discovery; an examination of how we all see truth differently, and how beliefs may blind us. It's a story of loss, grief, love, parenting, and madness; one woman's trek through them all, and her ability to ultimately find solid ground, and redemption, through forgiveness.

Six different people from different walks of life all come together in unimaginable ways when they each have a surprising connection to one woman. She is Kopper Kandy, a nude dancer in a Portland strip club, Exxxotica, and she will change each of their lives forever.Meanwhile Kopper Kandy is Allison, the single mother, the woman, who must find a way to integrate herself before she loses who she is forever. As each person is drawn to the club, the reverberations through their relationships are felt in very different ways. Sex, love, power, money and the ultimate mystery of men and women are explored in this provocative novel that will keep the reader craving the next twist of fate before it all coalesces in one defining moment-a moment that will determine the rest of their lives.