Coming Out of the Dark

Being brought up in a Christian home and having a praying mother I felt, I didn't have to worry about ever having to think of having a personal relationship with the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I felt, I was doing great with my life and I didn't need help. I felt, I had it all under control (so I thought ) until, my life took a terrible turn. I had a great job, I always had spending money, was able to buy a car, and had credit cards. I had the main material things that keep us going in life yet, I was lacking something within that wasn't being fulfilled by the material things. I didn't feel peace within that comes only from knowing the lord. In my years I had learned to suppress my pain and my anger until, I had to get surgery. I then lost my job, couldn't afford to pay for my car and almost lost my home. All the anger I ever had in me I allowed it to come out and I fell into a very cold, lonely and dark pit. My life became very dark and lonely, it became filled with anger, bitterness, fear, and violence. My life had to make that turn in order for me to realize I wasn't in control. The more I thought I was in control, the deeper I continue to fall in this dark pit. I finally became tired of being angry and not being able to get control that, I cried out to God and surrendered. God had to start changing me in order to then, start changing my life. The change in my life was mentally painful but, then the journey began which started not only to light my path it, began to light my soul. I started to feel safe and sure that I would never be the same after this journey for, I started to feel peace which allowed me to be free. 'The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day. Proverbs 4:15 The first gleam that I saw did become brighter in life like the full light of day in which then, I was able to start COMING OUT OF THE DARK.