My life as a drunkard

This book is about a life that could and would almost certainly end up in the clutches of alcohol and drugs. It is the story of an anxious and very divided human being and his struggle out of the madness.
Set from 1972-2020, the book tells of a dysfunctional and very divided, as well as addicted, human being of 39, who suddenly had the choice: Do you want to live or die?
I weighed only 48 kilos and had lost pretty much everything. As a drunken sufferer of multiple sclerosis, could I fight my way back and, if so, how?